Chapter 12 · 2527 words · 11 min

12: Wanwan's Flu / Dr. Lan Xiaoyu

[S1 INTRODUCED — DR. LAN XIAOYU]

The phone call came on a Friday evening at seven-fifteen, which Lin's internal calendar identified as the end of his second full week on the inter-section project and the beginning of the first weekend he had genuinely intended to spend on nothing but calligraphy practice and the Tang poetry anthology's remaining sections.

His mother's voice: careful, trying to sound less worried than she was. "Your sister has a fever. Thirty-nine point two. It's been three days. She won't eat." A pause. "She says it's nothing. She's been saying that since Wednesday."

Lin could see, through the phone, his mother's particular form of worry: the compressed expression, the hands doing something small and unnecessary in the kitchen while she talked, the effort to present the information without the urgency she actually felt. His mother was a nurse at the county clinic in Hengyuan, which meant she knew exactly what thirty-nine point two after three days indicated clinically and exactly what it felt like to be the mother of the sixteen-year-old with the thirty-nine point two, and the combination was producing the specific anxiety of a person who knew too much and couldn't fix it herself because the patient was her own child.

"How is she otherwise," Lin said.

"Pale. Not eating. She got up once today for the bathroom and went back to bed. She's not reading."

Not reading was the detail that mattered. Wanwan read constantly — on the bus, at meals, in between everything else. Not reading meant the flu had progressed to the level where even passive entertainment was too effortful.

"I'll come tomorrow morning," Lin said.

His mother began the expected objection: "You don't have to—"

"I know," Lin said. "I'll be on the seven o'clock bus."

A brief silence that was his mother letting the relief she wasn't going to name show briefly in the pauses. "Your father is doing the Saturday make-up session. He'll be home by noon."

"I'll be there before noon. Buy more ibuprofen if you're running low. Keep her fluids up tonight."

He hung up and looked at the ceiling of his boarding house room for a moment. The 忍 character on the wall. The wooden swallow on the desk. Saturday morning bus: three hours each way. He would be back Sunday evening. The calligraphy practice and Tang poetry anthology would wait.

He set the alarm for five forty-five and packed a small bag for the overnight and went to sleep.

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The seven o'clock bus from Qingyuan to Hengyuan County took two hours and fifty minutes on the provincial highway and the county road, which in October was a different journey from the August arrival — the flatlands had moved from summer's deep green to the post-harvest palette of cut stalks and turned earth and the occasional winter wheat already putting out its first tender green. The sky was overcast but not oppressively so, the grey October sky that pressed down at a comfortable height rather than a suffocating one.

Lin sat in the third row from the back. He had the notebook out and was making notes about the inter-section project's sixth township, whose data had come in correctly but whose formatting required re-standardization before it could be compared against the other six. The notes were mechanical enough to do on a moving bus without nausea.

At the Hengyuan junction the bus turned onto the county road and the flatlands gave way to the village landscape he had grown up in: smaller fields, farmhouses set back from the road behind their walls, the village collective structures visible at intervals — the water tower, the grain storage building, the primary school's playground equipment. He stopped making notes and looked at the landscape with the particular attention of someone who knows it from childhood and is seeing it now through adult eyes, which was the combination that produced the most accurate picture of a place — the childhood familiarity preventing tourist-distance, the adult understanding preventing sentimentality.

His village came up at the fifty-minute mark of the county road section. The bus didn't stop there; he got off at the Liujia Junction, a kilometer walk from the house.

His mother was at the gate. She had, apparently, been watching the road.

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The house was the same house it had always been: the main building, the courtyard, the kitchen off the east wall, the vegetable patch behind the outer wall where his father's winter cabbages were coming in. His mother had been here for twenty-three years, his father for twenty-four, which was long enough for a house to become exactly itself — settled in its habits, its particular smells, its specific organization of objects in specific places. The kitchen smelled of stock that had been simmering since morning. The front room had his father's physics textbooks on the shelf where they had always been, and his mother's medical reference volumes on the shelf below, and the photograph of Lin's grandparents on the wall, and the small Buddha on the high shelf that his mother prayed to twice daily regardless of what her official political position on religion was.

Wanwan was in her room, which was at the back of the house, a room that had been hers since she was four and that had accumulated, over twelve years, the exact sediment of one person's specific development: the science fiction novels, the mathematics competition trophies, the periodic table poster she'd replaced with a K-pop poster at fourteen and replaced with the periodic table again at fifteen. She was in bed with the blanket up and an expression of sixteen-year-old dignity that was undermined by the pallor and the obvious discomfort.

"You didn't have to come," she said.

"I know," Lin said. He sat on the edge of the bed. "How long has the throat hurt."

"Since Wednesday. It's just a cold."

"Show me." He produced the small pocket flashlight he'd brought from his room — a habit from his mother, who kept one in every bag. He checked her throat: red, significantly inflamed, the specific redness that was not purely viral. He pressed below her jaw; she flinched. The lymph nodes were swollen enough to be palpable without much pressure.

"Not just a cold," he said. "Could be strep. We're going to the county hospital."

"It's Saturday."

"The emergency clinic runs Saturday afternoons."

"I don't want to go to the hospital." She said it with the specific sixteen-year-old resentment of someone whose dignity has been violated by being ill. "I just need to sleep."

"You can sleep after." He stood up. "Get dressed. Bring a jacket."

She looked at him with her mother's eyes — the same calculation, the same assessment, the same eventual pragmatism when the assessment concluded that resistance was not cost-effective. She got up.

His mother stayed at the house — she would have come, but Wanwan at sixteen preferred the minimal-audience illness experience. Lin and Wanwan took the county bus to Hengyuan town together: Wanwan wrapped in her jacket, not reading, looking out the window with the expression of someone conserving energy.

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The Hengyuan County Hospital's emergency clinic on a Saturday afternoon had the particular mixture of cases that rural emergency clinics accumulated on weekends: a farmer with a machinery-related hand injury, an elderly man with what appeared to be a cardiac event and his adult daughter filling out forms with trembling efficiency, two small children with shared respiratory symptoms being managed by a grandmother who had clearly handled this before, a teenager with a sports injury sitting with a professional expression of unconcern that did not match his posture.

They waited forty minutes on the plastic chairs. Wanwan leaned against Lin's shoulder and did not object to this. He sat still and let her and worked through a problem from the sixth township's data in his head.

The examination room call came from a young doctor — young enough to be recently graduated, the white coat over scrubs not yet worn into its proper creases, the name badge reading DR. LAN XIAOYU in crisp characters. She was approximately twenty-six, and she had the kind of face that was several years from being beautiful in the way that settled into full visibility — not finished yet, still becoming itself, but with the essential components clearly present. She was paying attention in the focused way of recent training not yet replaced by experienced shorthand.

She took Wanwan in first for the general history, which Lin listened to from the doorway — the duration of symptoms, the progression, the fever readings. The examination room was small: a table, a desk with a computer, a cabinet with supplies, a window facing the hospital's inner courtyard. Three people made the room full.

Dr. Lan used the otoscope, the tongue depressor, the penlight. She worked with the organized efficiency of someone who had done this sequence thousands of times in clinical training and was now doing it with actual patients. She leaned forward to check the right ear — the standard otoscope examination angle — and the angle of her body and the small room and the examination table placement brought her close and brought the open V of her white coat's collar into Lin's peripheral field.

He saw: pale skin, the clean line of a collarbone, the slight shadow of its curve. He was looking before he was thinking about looking, and when he was thinking about it he had been looking for approximately two seconds, and then he directed his attention to the anatomical chart of ear structures on the wall above the table, which was genuinely interesting and gave him something to look at while his expression returned to neutral.

She straightened and glanced at him. The glance was brief and professional and contained something specific: she had registered it, she had assessed it in the half-second of the glance, and she had decided to continue the examination without comment. The decision not to comment was not indifference — it was a calibration. She had seen residents look at their female colleagues and had learned to assess the specific quality of the looking, and her assessment of this particular instance was something he couldn't fully read but that produced a non-hostile outcome.

She turned to write the prescription.

"Streptococcal pharyngitis," she said, still writing. "Strep throat, bacterial, not viral — which is why the fever has persisted. Ten days of amoxicillin — finish the full course, even when the symptoms clear, which they will within forty-eight hours of starting the antibiotics. Ibuprofen for fever as needed. Liquids and soft food for the first three days." She tore off the prescription sheet. "Questions?"

"She's taking an exam in six weeks," Lin said. "Will this affect her capacity to study?"

Dr. Lan looked at him. Not the prescription-writing look — the actual-attention look. "She should feel substantially normal within seventy-two hours of starting antibiotics. The fatigue may linger for a week but shouldn't be significant. Keep her resting this weekend and she should be full capacity by Tuesday or Wednesday." A pause. "Make sure she finishes the antibiotics. Incomplete strep courses can have recurrence complications."

"Understood." He waited a half-beat. "If the symptoms return or the antibiotics don't resolve it fully — for follow-up purposes."

She looked at him again with the calibrated look. She reached into her coat pocket and produced a card — the clinic's general line, her name, the department extension. She held it out. When he took it her fingers were two centimeters from his for approximately three-quarters of a second.

She said: "Finish the antibiotics," and turned to the computer to enter the visit record, and Lin said, "Thank you, Doctor," and shepherded Wanwan out of the room with the prescription.

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They filled the prescription at the hospital pharmacy and Wanwan swallowed the first pill with a paper cup of water and complained that it was enormous and Lin said all effective medications were enormous, which was not true but was the kind of statement that worked on sixteen-year-olds.

On the bus back to the village, Wanwan leaned against the window and was quiet, the comfortable quiet of someone who has been taken care of and can now allow themselves to be tired. Lin sat beside her and thought about the prescription in his jacket pocket and the card in his wallet.

He had been aware of Dr. Lan Xiaoyu in the way that he was privately aware of Su Wanyin in the library — not identically, because the quality was different, but the awareness was the same category. Su Wanyin was interesting: she required understanding. Dr. Lan Xiaoyu was — he looked for the right word — appealing in the more immediate way, the way that had to do with the collarbone and the white coat and the brief calibrated glance and the three-quarters of a second when her fingers were two centimeters from his.

He was a person who noticed things. He had always been a person who noticed things. He was in the process of making his peace with the specific things he noticed and the specific way he noticed them.

He thought about the card in his wallet.

The family dinner that evening was his father's return at noon and the four of them at the table, Wanwan managing soup with the recovering-patient quality of someone who has remembered she is hungry. His father talked about the make-up session and about one of his students who had, apparently, managed to explain Newton's third law by reference to a specific argument with a sibling that Lin recognized as a sibling of his own, from twenty years ago. His mother talked about the clinic's upcoming winter preparation. Lin talked about the county's infrastructure review project, selectively, the parts that illustrated rather than disclosed.

He took the Sunday evening bus back to Qingyuan. He sat in the third row from the back and looked at the October flatlands darkening toward evening and thought about Wanwan finishing her antibiotics and about the examination-room geometry and about *finish the antibiotics* and about three-quarters of a second.

He thought: the card is in my wallet for the practical reason that she specified, which is follow-up medical care if needed. He thought: this is true. He thought: it is also not the only reason I put it in my wallet, which is something I should be honest about to myself even if the honesty doesn't yet have operational implications.

He arrived in Qingyuan at ten and walked home from the bus station through the October evening. The 忍 character on the wall when he got in. The wooden swallow. He made tea and sat at the desk and opened the notebook and did not write anything about the card.

He would wait and see.

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