6: Servant Aluan's Wager

The first true sleep of Su Yan's new life ended an hour before dawn.

He woke without effort. Eight years of being a body that woke tense, listening for the sound of the corridor that meant a cousin was coming for sport — that was gone. He woke clean. The body was rested in a way the body had not been since some childhood he could no longer clearly remember. He lay on the thin mat for a long count, listening to the quiet of the eastern wing, and let the morning come up under his eyelids before he opened them.

He sat up. He stood. He folded the mat.

He went through the first form of *White Crane Stretches* once, in the gray pre-dawn light, in his mother's old writing room. The form was now something his body executed while his mind paid attention to other matters. His shoulders rolled in their sockets the way well-oiled hinges roll. His breath sat in the bottom of his lungs and stayed there.

He was at the wash-basin when he heard the second tap.

It was the same kind of tap as the night before. Tray, corridor, polite. He slid the door open, expecting Aluan.

Aluan was kneeling outside, exactly as before. The tray today held millet porridge and a single soft-boiled egg. The soft-boiled egg was a thing Su Yan had not seen in his own breakfast bowl since his mother had vanished.

"Aluan," he said quietly.

She did not look up. Her hands stayed folded on her thighs. He understood, with the part of himself that had been Sebastian Yan and had spent years reading the body language of frightened people in laboratories where wrong words could be career-ending, that she had not slept much last night and was working very hard, this morning, not to look at his throat.

He knelt opposite her in the doorway, the way he had knelt last night.

"You have decided something," he said. It was not a question.

She nodded, head still down. Once.

"Will you come inside, please."

She lifted her head a fraction at *please*. The word was not one she received often. He saw her register it. Then she rose, carried the tray across his threshold, set it on the writing table, and stood with her hands folded.

He slid the door closed.

He did not sit at the writing table; he did not want to put the table between them. He sat down on the floor instead, against the eastern wall, and indicated a place opposite him. After a hesitation, Aluan knelt there.

"Aluan," he said. "I want to be careful with you. So I am going to tell you what I think you have decided, and you can correct me if I am wrong. Is that all right?"

She nodded.

"You have decided," he said, "to keep my secret. Not because I am the young master and you are a servant — that is not a real reason and we both know it. You have decided to keep it because you saw something in this room last night that you have been waiting eight years to see. You think that whatever happened to me yesterday is a thing my mother would have wanted to happen. And you do not want to lose it by accident."

Her eyes, which had remained politely lowered, came up.

They were dark, careful eyes. They were the eyes of a fourteen-year-old girl who had been mute since the age of six — not by birth, Su Yan understood now; by *choice*. He saw it in the corner of her gaze. There had been a thing she had said once, when she was small, that had cost her badly. She had elected, as some children do, to spend the rest of her life *not saying things*. The household had decided this was a defect. She had let them decide.

"Yes," her eyes said. *Yes.*

"All right," said Su Yan.

He let the silence sit for a moment. He did not want to rush this. He had been a young master to her his entire life and had given her, in that time, exactly one extra steamed bun's worth of conscious courtesy. He owed her the patience now of someone who was finally doing the math correctly.

"Aluan," he said. "I am going to need help. I am going to need it discreetly. I cannot pay you in money — the household watches my purse. I cannot promote you in the household — the household has not yet finished revising what it believes about me. I cannot, at the moment, *protect* you, because I am not yet strong enough to protect myself. So what I am going to offer you is the only thing I have."

He took a breath.

"I am offering you," he said quietly, "a debt. A real one. The kind that gets recorded in a private book and kept in a place where my body does not have access to it, so that if I am killed in this house someone else can collect it for you. I am asking you to take a wager on whether I survive the next year. I am asking you to take it knowing that I will *try* to survive, and that if I do, you will be one of the first three people in this household whose name I never forget."

Aluan's eyes filled, very briefly, the way they had filled the night before.

She did not cry. Eight years of training in not crying held.

But she did, after a long count, lift her right hand and lay it palm-up on the floor between them.

It was the cleanest small contract Su Yan had ever seen offered.

He laid his right hand palm-down over hers. Their fingertips matched.

"Done," he said softly.

He did not add *thank you*. He understood, again with Sebastian's calibration on these things, that *thank you* was a word for surfaces, and what was being done between them was not on a surface. He simply held her hand, palm to palm, for the count of three breaths, and then he let go.

Aluan exhaled all the way for the first time since she had set the tray down.

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"Tell me," he said, in his ordinary voice, leaning back against the wall, "who in this house can hear me when I am not in this room."

Aluan, freed from the formality of the contract, became — in a way he had not expected — *quick*. She did not have a voice, but she had been listening to this household for eight years from the position of someone everyone overlooked, and she had a great deal of information to deposit and very little time to deposit it in. She used her hands. She used the floor. She used a small piece of charcoal from the writing-table drawer.

In the next hour, she diagrammed for him the full intelligence map of the Su clan branch as a fourteen-year-old laundry-girl had seen it.

The watchers at his pavilion door — three rotations, two of them stepmother's, one of them *Su Bei's*. The corridor that carried sound to the east garden where Su Bei had a habit of taking morning tea. The two cousins in the second branch who had been *given coin* by Stepmother Yu Lin three days ago and who had been seen, the same evening, in a tea-house in the lower district whose owner had once worked for a buyer-broker. The chief steward, Zhao, who would protect his position above all things and would therefore turn whichever way the wind showed strongest. The cook's apprentice Mei-er, who was Aluan's age and disliked Su Bei because Su Bei had hit her cousin once on a temple-festival, and who could be counted as a quiet ally if approached without a formal ask.

She also drew, very carefully, the layout of the eastern wing's old rooms. There were doors he had not known about. There were a small disused storage cellar beneath the room two over from his that the family had stopped using in his grandfather's time. There were three places along the corridor where the floorboards talked, and one place where they did not — a small dead spot that had been there since the wing was built. *Useful,* she diagrammed in charcoal, *for a man who needs to leave a room without being followed.*

Su Yan listened.

He listened the way a man listens when he is being given the most expensive gift he has been given in years.

"Aluan," he said, at the end of it, "will you accept a second offer from me."

Her head tilted.

"The mute laundry-girl is a useful cover," he said. "You have built it carefully. I am not going to ask you to break it. But I would like you, when we are alone in a room and the door is closed and we have checked it for ears, to *speak* to me — if you can. If you do not want to, we will use the charcoal. I will not press."

She went very still.

She went still for a long time. Long enough that Su Yan began, gently, to prepare himself to withdraw the offer.

Then she opened her mouth.

What came out was a small, dry, *unused* sound. The sound a hinge makes the first time it is moved after rust has set. It was not a word. She closed her mouth on it. She tried again. The second sound was no better.

She lifted her hands and signed, in the rough field-sign that servants used in courtyards: *I have not said a word in eight years. Please be patient.*

"I will be," Su Yan said softly. "Take as long as you need. Or never, if never is what is right. The offer stays open."

She nodded. Once. Then, a thing he had never seen her do before, she *almost smiled* — the corner of her mouth lifted a fraction, and she folded her hands in her lap with the posture of someone who had something she wanted to say that she had not yet found the way to say.

He did not press.

He stood up. He picked up the tray. He brought it to the floor between them. He lifted the cover off the millet porridge and the soft-boiled egg.

"Eat half of this," he said, calmly. "Half each. I am not going to be the kind of young master who is fed by a girl who has not eaten her own breakfast."

She froze.

"Eat, Aluan."

She ate.

He ate.

They ate in silence in a quiet room in the eighth district of Cloud Sky City, while the dawn lit the lattice of the window slowly orange, and somewhere down the corridor a household that had been certain about its arrangements was, without yet knowing it, beginning to be quietly *re-staffed*.

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When the tray was empty and the door had been opened and Aluan had carried it back down the corridor at her usual noiseless pace, Su Yan crossed the room to the writing table.

He pulled out the false bottom. He took the rolled rice paper with his three headings on it.

He inked the brush. He added, beneath *Aluan. Ally. First.*, a second short line.

*Mei-er, cook's apprentice. To be approached carefully, through Aluan, after one week of patience.*

He sat with the line for a moment.

Then, at the bottom of the page, he wrote four characters in the schoolboy hand his mother had taught him when he was four:

*Mother. I am not alone.*

He let the brushstrokes dry. He rolled the paper. He hid it.

He stood up.

He went to the lattice door, opened it a crack, and looked at the eastern garden through the gap.

In the gray-orange of early morning, the Su clan compound was already moving — servants up, stewards inspecting, guards at the gates being relieved by the morning watch. The household was beginning to recover the shape of an ordinary day. The yesterday in which a Trash Heir had been expelled and then, instead, had asked for a re-examination, had not yet been *processed* by the household's body language. The household's body language would, Su Yan understood, take perhaps a day longer.

He had a day. Possibly two.

He intended to spend them carefully.

He slid the door closed.

He stood for a moment in the center of the room, with the morning light coming up through the lattice, and let himself — only for a breath, only because no one was watching — close his eyes and feel the ignited place in his chest, which was *steady* and *warm* and *waiting*.

The voice, this morning, did not speak. But the ember pulsed, very gently, in time with his breath.

He opened his eyes.

He picked up his mother's writing brush, and his ordinary clansman's robe, and the cracked jade pendant from the writing table — and he set himself, with the patience of a man who had eight years of empty time to spend now, *to begin the rest of the day's work.*